It’s easy to say than do. I couldn’t help being angry at Dan Park and also couldn’t help staying anxious. My mom’s friend said that he would call me to work after public holiday, and it’s been the fourth day, I still get nothing. I kept whining and feeling sorry for myself, why is it like this? If they don’t want me just say no, why do they agree but do nothing then? Everything seems so falling apart and I want to get better but still don’t want to face the mess.
I couldn’t try to apply the jobs in Australia, coz it clearly needs two years working experiences, which I don’t have. I so wanna go back and start my new life. I really wish I could be luckier then I will start making wiser choices, and never waste time on the wrong people. I also hope I can be cooler and less anxious. Using these time to do self-learning, at least this is what I can do now.
Honestly, I’m so scared but I’ll try to clam down and be better. 我要相信自己可以跨过这道坎,就像原来一样。我要保持乐观,这样身体才能保持健康,皮肤才会好,正能量才会汇集过来。我爱我自己。
Record myself in 2019 